Stephanie Says.. Take a walk inside my head

April 4, 2017

from Facebook, 2014

Filed under: Glimpses of Me — srose @ 2:03 am

You know those quizzes that are going around? My friends and I recently took the “Which Biblical Heroine Are You ?” Quiz. I got Mary (whom I am NOT) and one of my friends got Miriam. We talked last night about her and I said “Oh and I love that she was one of the few people in the Bible mentioned as knowing how to play the tambourine.” My friend thought for a moment and came back with “Okay. I don’t understand. How is that important?”
Well. It’s not. Not really.
I just love little details like that. Three or four words that could be thrown away but that transform people in stories from Abstract Historical Figures into Real Live Flesh and Blood…well…People.

Miriam played the tambourine. Four words. Just a sentence. Yet, I love them. I love the little details.

Peter had a mother in law.
Philip had daughters.
Rhoda got so flustered at seeing Peter having escaped from jail that she slammed the door in his face and left him standing outside.
Jacob is recorded as having kissed his Rachel before he ever talked to her.
Moses put his wife on a donkey and sent her home.
Aaron and Moses were three years apart in age.
Paul had a sister…and a nephew.
David’s complexion was “ruddy”. (this leads to one of my favorite Bob Dunston memories: the day he subbed in one of my Bible classes and told us that people thought that David had red hair. I was like WHAT? Where is THAT in the Bible?)
Moses was crying when he was in his basket.
Paul escaped danger by being let over a city wall…in a basket.
Some of the prophets were fig growers.
Abigail was married to a fool-literally.

I’ll let you know if I can think of more. I’m not talking about things that are mentioned and dwelt on. I’m talking things that are just…tiny little details…little glimpses…I love those. I really do.

April 1, 2017

From March 31, 2014

Filed under: Glimpses of Me,Uncategorized — srose @ 4:01 pm

Okay, my babies, real talk for a minute…and this may be long.
There are people whom I love.
There are people whom I respect.
There are people whom I admire.
There are people whom I smile and nod at but don’t really listen to.
There are people who can’t really tell me anything because I judge them as hypocrites.
There are people whom I can’t talk to because I know they will only give me pat answers.
There are people who only seem to exist in order to hurt me over over and over.
There are people whom I can’t tell anything real to because they cannot be trusted.
And yet…
There are people
Sometimes there are people
Put into my life
Put into my world
Willing to climb my walls
Swim my moats
Breach my defenses
And see me
The real me
Not the princess
Not the child
not the little girl jumping up and down
spinning around
And clapping her hands

But ME
broken
hurt
scarred
betrayed
Yet longing
to love
to care

To be used
To put her arms
Around the world
And save it

These people
They see ME
The hills I climb
The wounds I bear
And the ways I break myself off
part by part
piece by piece
In order to be loved
Just for a moment

Not everyone can, you know.
Depending on who you are
you might see me as a clown
A cheerleader
A Prima Dona
Someone who does everything to excess
Someone who who wants her own crown

And then
And then
And then
For a moment
There comes someone
Just for a moment
who sees
Who really sees

Past the giggles
And the squeals
and the whispers
And the hair flips

And loves the Me
The real ME
of me

And I listen
Really listen

Because them
I can love
And respect
And admire
and trust

Even when everything else
Is falling apart

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